I am telling my story as a way to say goodbye and maybe help someone who may be in the same situation. I have been "working" BJ for 15 years. I have read just about every book, studied many counting, money management and tracking strategies. I have had good years, bad years and a great deal of enjoyment with this challenging, exciting and sometimes crazy game. However over the past 2-3 years I began to get caught up in the game too much. It stopped being fun and became an obsession. I have not posted much on this board but I have been here since the early days.
I know that the lack of control I have is my own fault and I do not wish to judge anyone or their ability to control their own actions.
What I want to tell everyone is that it all came to an end on Thursday.
I was in AC, had been there three times this week instead of working, anyway I had a moment where I realized that my life can no longer go on in this direction. I had been down 4-5K on the day but also up 7K at one time. Money was not the motivation for what I did next.
I walked into the security office of the casino that I was at and asked to be placed on the excluded players list.
The guard almost shit, he called the head of the dept who immediately came to the floor to meet me. He and another guy escorted me up to their office where they treated me very well. I could not believe how professional they were. They explained all of the options including a total life long exclusion from all of their properties or if I went to casino control I could be excluded from all A/C casinos.
This is the option I opted for. They even took the time to call my wife, they asked me to sit in the next room over. I was able to hear them talking to my wife. They were even nice to her.
It was very different than I though it would be.
The most ironic part of the whole story is that for the past 10 years I have worked my ass off to stay off this list only to place my self on it. I choose to quit this way because I could not do it through GA or self control. I want to wish each of the best in your future. I envy you for your ability to control your actions and play with your head.
You passion for this game is what keeps you grinding and enjoying the ride.
Good Luck and remember no 6/5
BT
