what does that mean?
"18 months" = what??? playing 24 hours a day 31 days per month? 2 hours a month?
"nothing but losses" = what??? you have lost every session? you have 18 consecutive losing months? a cumulative loss over 18 months?
Playing a strong game a few hours a month for 18 months and being in the red is well within the normal fluctuation.
Playing thousands of hours and still being in the red, having 18 consecurive losing months, etc. something is wrong.